The Dog Days Are Over

Well have been in a hell of a downfall for me this pass few months....
things don't seem to go my way....

failing an interview (sucks)...

messing up my whole planning for my future (double suck)...

emo relationship (triple suck)...

haywire the whole moving house thingy
PS: i just moved to a new place (Quadruple suck)...

feeling lost (quintuple suck)...

well everything just suck with a capital "C"
but at least with all those rubbish going on with my life i manage to actually survived it...
3 cheers for me "hip hip hurray" x 3
well everyone has their ups and downs well just this song the dog days....
well my dog days are over and i am taking that damn elevator up...
so dedicating this song now to everyone who has been experiencing the dog days now so be happy as its gonna be over real soon...

Happiness, hit her like a train on a track
Coming towards her, stuck still no turning back
She hid around corners and she hid under beds
She killed it with kisses and from it she fled
With every bubble she sank with a drink
And washed it away down the kitchen sink

The dog days are over
The dog days are done
The horses are coming
So you better run

Run fast for your mother run fast for your father
Run for your children for your sisters and brothers
Leave all your love and your longing behind you
Can't carry it with you if you want to survive

The dog days are over
The dog days are done
Can you hear the horses
'Cause here they come

And I never wanted anything from you
Except everything you had
And what was left after that too. oh.

Happiness hit her like a bullet in the back
Struck from a great height
By someone who should know better than that

The dog days are over
The dog days are gone
Can you hear the horses
'Cause here they come

Run fast for your mother and fast for your father
Run for your children for your sisters and brothers
Leave all your love and your longing behind you
Can't carry it with you if you want to survive

The dog days are over
The dog days are gone
Can you hear the horses
Because here they come

The dog days are over
The dog days are gone
Can you hear the horses
Because here they come

Luv,

~GiNo

a few months ago this date 27th of every month marks the start of an endless peril bound within me...

but this is the 1st time ever 27th i feel free

as how wonderful life is now you're in the world

this is YOUR song ....<3

i hope you don't mind i put down in words....

How wonderful life is now you're in the world....

a toast for a wonderful one month for you and me ... and years to come ...

a warm dedication to you ...

YOUR SONG

My gift is my song
And this one's for you
And you can tell everybody
That this is your song
It maybe quite simple
But now that it's done
Hope you don't mind
I hope you don't mind
That I put down in words
How wonderful life is now you're in the world

Sat on the roof
And I kicked off the moss
Well some of the verses well
They got me quite cross
But the sun's been kind
While I wrote this song
It's for people like you that
Keep it turned on

So excuse me for forgetting
But these things I do
You see I've forgotten
If they're green or they're blue
Anyway the thing is what I really mean
Yours are the sweetest eyes I've ever seen

And you can tell everybody
This is your song
It may be quite simple
But now that it's done
I hope you don't mind
I hope you don't mind that I put down in words

How wonderful life is now you're in the world
I hope you don't mind
I hope you don't mind that I put down in words
How wonderful life is now you're in the world

luv,

~GiNo

TANGLED feelings !!!

final year project was like hell !!!

having sleepless nights and countless stress...

sigh ....

i certainly know the life of the creative line is like that... but...

how much to others know about our life....?

thats the question...

i am all my besties therapist...

i hear their cry for help... i help advice and nurture their weeping heart....

well not so great (hyper-balled)

i was basically just doing what a friend needs... someone to talk to and to hear them out....

at least my friends has someone....

sigh ... what about me ??? i thought i had someone....

but i seem to be expecting too much from that someone...

when i am sad and moody still nobody knows...

when i am moody i have to control afraid i might cause fights...

when i wanna share something i need to pick the correct timing....

what i am feeling who can tell ? as usual nobody ... i am a great actor at heart....

acted all the while.... i lay my mask down for someone...

but does that someone know about it....

i am such a nothing ....

i can't even let someone feel secure...

cant let someone understands me a little bit....

everyones wants me to hear them out ....

who wants to hear me out ??? WHO ???

feeling so complicated now like this tangled wire !!!

Luv,

~GiNo

This is It !!!

Currently I have been so caught up with Final Year Project....

hardly had time for anything sorry to neglect my blog so long....

well people always say a good girl friend is someone that influence their other half to be good and excel in their undergoing...

previously i have been through damnest road in my life...

caught in a triangle of wrong...

people hates me... friends thinks i am wrong... friends dont support... studies going down the drain... emotionally unstable... the whole world went upside down....

so many things i can't say nor tell ... when i need to say something there was no one... not even blog it out... i was so bound in to that damn relationship....

the day was dark everyday to me... there was no smile... there was no peace... there was no sweet dreams... there was no good night sleep...

suddenly sunshine came in..... you're hand came in and pull me out from this oblivion....

well i was glad that i console a friend in need...

i never knew you're the one...

its been awhile we know each other but never thought you would be my saviour...

thanks for coming into my life...

bringing me out of this mess... you're the one thats have influence me to be good....

all the things turn wayward up now...

smile filled my face... my life is not filled with guilt no more...

now my design is going better and my studies is not all haywired....

you are my savior i am glad its 27th i ask you.... and now i am so happy now....

so motivated in doing anything... you're like my energy booster....

thank you for coming into my life at the right moment....

love is like a knot....

its a beautiful mess....

thanks for bringing me into the mess together....

Luv,

~GiNo

What Can i Do ???

well people may think my life is beautiful...

but those who are close with me knows my life is nothing but a living nightmare...

there is so many people pursuing me in search for happiness...

but i chose someone else which turn so many people down in disappointment ...

its not perfect happiness for me...

but i have heard one of my seniors say

everybody wants to be happy but no ones wants to feel pain,

but how do we get a rainbow if there was no rain

well i now i know that ... feelings are so uncontrollable is something beyond you and me...

so what can i do... really what can i do...

hope you enjoy the song....

Luv,

~GiNo

Love or Sex ?

Love ...

what is love ?

well does love has to come with sex ?

in my opinion... love should be just plain love...

sex ? i prefer to called it making love (call me a thing from the past if you like)

to me making love is something you share with someone you really love and care for...

if there is no making love involve is it still called love ?

to me LOVE don't need sex to fuel it, so it could be lasted longer....

if it is true love making love can wait... wait until the relationship between two are strong and stable.

some may say that this thinking only exist fairy tales and movies....

well life is like a movie... love is like a story...

because today there is too much thing that people think about ... afraid of this and that....

scared of what people might think ... fear of the affects it will cause...

if its love then drop everything you think and feel your heart and follow your soul to love courageously...

Love ?

love means no boundaries.... 2 peoples world merging into one....

no secrets... no hidden agenda... faith only

who is to give ? who is to take ?

do that really matter ?

if love is at account then it don't matter...

if you really love someone.... even unappreciated you will be willingly to offer more....

no matter sadness and tears will emerge but to me thats just the sign to tell us that we are still alive...

well making love and sex this 2 words... whats the difference ?

sex is for fun... u had it... you forget it after tomorrow you wake up another normal day...

making love is a level where you make out filled with happiness and care for each other....

remember in your heart...

i may be living in denial you say but...

to me love needs sacrifice and forgiveness to make it possible

as nobody is perfect in this world...

as ones imperfection combines the others imperfections is what makes the couples perfect....

just like a puzzle piece put together...

ones there is someone who ask me.... "Do you believe in forever ?"

well my answer after so long its still yes....

even its just for a second but the moments spend together is immortalized forever in my heart....

why make love when you can enjoy the feeling of love

Luv,

~GiNo

What is me ? what is us ? what is we ?

sometimes I feel sick and tired of everything....

i feel like i need to go to a place where nobody knows me....

unfamiliar and yet safe....

felt like running away from all the commitments i have with me.....

sometimes i felt nobody understands me at all....

i always do question the meaning of life... its to vast for me to know all now.....

i always do question the meaning of love... its to complicated for me to understand now.....

i always do question the meaning of ME...

well me is a word i would use all the time....

whenever you are not happy and want someone to shout at.....

theres only me....

when you want someone to really care about your feelings....

theres only me....

if want to find someone to hear random rants......

theres only me.....

whenever you need someone to read your mind.....

theres only me....

whenever you have something to share....

then there's us....

whenever you praise and said things that soothes the ear......

then there's us....

whenever give out care and love.....

then there's us....

whenever you're have more money.....

then there's us....

whenever you look gorgeous.....

then there's us.....

whenever you share.....

then there is a we.....

whenever you go party......

then there is a we....

whenever you're having fun.....

then there is a we....

its all about the giving and taking..... LOVE ??? LIFE ??? ME ??? US ??? WE ???

i dont mind giving more....

i dont hope for repayment.....

all i need is appreciation.....

Luv,

~>GiNo

My Sweet Lollipop

Did you know that LG's Lollipop mobile has its own short via the launching in Thailand....
so a romantic classic high school love story is made....
its sweet watching it..... like the style though...

talks about 2 best frienda Gao and Moo which fell for a Korean student exchange girl.....
with language barriers how are they gonna communicate ???

so i am gonna share this romantic episode of 5 to you guys out there.....
presenting.....

Lollipop. Love Story....

episode1



episode 2



episode 3



episode 4



episode 5 (End)



they even their own version of Lollipop thai version title My Sweet Lollipop not the original big bang and 2Ne1 ones
hope i can come up with such creative ways hahahaha.....
using phone emo as a note so cool

Luv,
~>GiNo

23rd year among the living !!!

i am 23 years old already....
means i am one step closer to death ... hahaha
well life and death is part of life....
why taking it so serious .....? right ?

well this year surprisingly i am not emo....
well most of the time i am kinda emo during birthdays....
but this year i am not ....
and other than that i learn more about life once again....

well my birthday was great....
My zoo friends plan a really great surprise...
really caught me out of my expectation...
ps: they suck at surprises coz they got busted in almost every surprise but this time it really got me... good job guys
never expected it.... as i thought we were celebrating for another girl Xin Leng ....
and she thought it was for me....
but it was for both of us...
we went to barbecue at May's house... that's the 1st leg of the celebration.....


barbecue gonna cause cancer ...



ding dong Gacky....with oily face



Lian with some funny freakish pose



whats with the eyes girl..... and the senyum sinis-sinis



Chili too happy to see the chicken wings



Burger Liew so happy lor.... got chicken



me and XinLeng cutting cake hahahaha cutting cake ceremony



Tupai handing over their present to me



see got camera recording some more like what conference like that



we are not getting married



my cake and her cake



look what they gave me.... they really love me ....
yep its sony erricsson K770i....crazy right
i love you guys too GD3 and my Zoo Friends....plus EJ for the precious present....
and EJ thanks for the Pull And Bear Wallet, Angus for the RM30, Hui Jun for your white chocolate macadamia and oreo cheese from Secret Recipe...
that day almost made me teary .....
lucky thing i can tahan or else sure habis let them record all the ugly part.....
boys and girls thank you i am really really very touched by the gift....
you guys know i need a phone a lot and guys go to the extend give me one ....
thank you guys so much it really meant alot to me....


during the eve we went to Hulu Langat for dinner.... and counting down

well after we makan pose for some pictures



group pics with Boon, Angus, Ej and HuiJun



as usually Angus likes to act cute



HuiJun such a poser



Boon what are you thinking dude



thats a flare ok !

then after that they were suppose surprise me at home....
but they failed to do so because i saw Ej in her car ...
i was suspecting something
but i still i never thought will have so many people in my room surprising me.....
well thank you guys EJ, Hui Jun, Angus, Tupai, Chili, Gacky, Jean Cui, Kevin, ChunHwa, Lian and Keng-Keng....


birthday went to kimchi haru again.... they surprise me with KimBap again...
well they told me KimBap is usually eaten on celebration so well What The Fuck....



bloated ..... after the meal....


hope you guys enjoy the pictures....
guys i love u guys alot ....
thanks for all the wishes through sms .... from Singapore to Taiwan thanks ...
sorry that it cost money hahaha....
and thanks to all the 171 wishes in Facebook hahahaa...

once again thanks and i love you guys ....
i really appreciate it ..... thanks for all the love and care
its unforgettable


Luv,
~GiNo

life is a bitch

ok inspired by the word "life is a pitch" i kinda change it a little hahaha
who cares.... people who really know me knows i am obnoxious....
i pick my nose, i fart in public, i say vulgar language, i talk loudly, i dun wear appropriately, i put legs up high, and i don't care much about my image

don't look at my face thinking that i am like all those goody to shoes hahaha
apparently i am not those kind of people....
so most likely there's a lot of people saying that he or she will be different talking craps and sucking up to me.....
but after meeting me and mingle with me or know me deeper....
they will eventually a gap will appear ....
dunno why but it happens.... disappointed after another promising they will be different hahaha
sweet talk hahahaha....

so people i talk trash sometimes... i am straight forward... i am annoying... i said things that people don't like to hear (which is the truth) i have not much real friends that i can really talk to i am not those fakers you get pretending to be good and back-stabbed you in the back
i am those who are not afraid to take sides...(hate those people who likes to stay neutral and not siding with anyone where's is your balls for guys and where is your dignity for girls)
if they are your friend just stand up and take sides.... that's what i call friendship....
if don't take sides then i know where you stand....
damn right i hate those neutral people...a bunch of wannabe good guy fakers...
well went to 3 yumcha session with friends....
1st its with the zoo friends, then with EJ and Hui Jun and after that some guy talk with the guys....
well talk about alot of things.... talk until now which is 7.11 exactly....
hahaha well really felt so much saliva used up hahaha...
well talking about life and how it sucks....
talking about love, sex, whores, relationships and whatever there is to talk about....
well life really was kinda sucky for me this pass few days where everything has been kind of boring and slow...
rain so much this few days and i look into the mirror to see how much i have grown up into....
i got more gray hair than my mom now.... i got wrinkles ... i have zits.... i have eye bag.... i lost weight.... i even lost my tummy.... i lost sanity....
well i almost lost everything.... but i havent lost 1 thing which is my memory....

all the sweet times and bad times is still freshly broiling in my bloody brain....
for me friendship is a very important part of my life
there are friends who will laugh with you but wont be there to sacrifice for you
there are friends who will laugh and go through the hard times with you sacrificing themselves....
well i am starting think and search through that memory of mine .....
are there any ???
well i have got the answers already.....
well some are hard to accept but what to do life is a bitch........


Luv,
~GiNo

Perfect....

went for the movies just now to watch "Orphan".....
ans saw this remarkable ad.....
i can say only a word i think this is the best thing on earth !!!

watch it for yourself



this Ad
is about life ....
its about love....
its about kindness .....
its about care ....
its a perfect world
a Utopia .....

how i wish the world like this exist..... i really hope life will be so worry less
so much of care and love ....
money destroys relationship ....
deteriorate families ....
breaks friendship....
separate lovers....
kills earth...
and stop everything good between the bonds of all life .....

i can say this ad touch me deep into my heart.....
i can worry less about my life and live happily enjoying if it were true .....
but wake up and smell the coffee.....
same back to square 1 money makes the world goes round......
love brings us together united as one ......


it moved me i hope it moved you too....

before i end this post i want say I love you guys all my family, my bro and sis, my friends and every that i care for ....(when i still have the chance)


Luv,
~GiNo

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a roller coaster of emotion....
yes thats what i am going through now....
hundreds of things flew over my mind....
thinking and interpreting 1 thing after another....
i suddenly feel so sad...
i cant explain how sad i just know that i am....

recently Vernon's mom went through some health condition which makes me think alot
his mom was healthy all the while... but why now....
my mom was the one holding up the family all the time...
working giving us money when we need it...
she was my hero from the day i know how to think...
i can recall how she struggle 1 time after another pulling back up the family ... time after time...
the time when she got married to my dad...
how my dad's business failed and how she struggle to paid the debts for my dad to avoid risks of bankruptcy....
but now my mom is in the verge of the same thing but i cant do a thing...
not to say my dad...
i felt so useless... as the eldest son i cant do even a thing....


her health is not getting any better.....
she has insomnia plus a heavy migraine....
without sleep her migraine is getting worse and worse but what can i do ???
i called back a few days a ago and heard her coughing i ask "you sick" she said nothing its just minor coughs i know she don't want me to get worried but still i am....

when Vernon said he is taking care of his mom that time... i was right here writing a blog....
i cant even fulfill a simple responsibility as a son...

she was always a weakling when it comes to her siblings....
i remember gossiping in front of my mom saying how useless i am...
well that really hurts but it hurt mommy even more she kept quite and shed tear ....
i remember i told mommy not to be afraid i will be someone someday...
but i was there in The Curve celebrating Mindy's birthday....( i admit i did cried in the curve that day) well trying putting yourself in my shoes....


my mom has early menopause due to her health condition when she was young as after giving birth to me... he was expecting another baby...
but in the end she found out it was a tumor in her ovary so she had to operate and had her ovary taken off in one side....(this makes her unable to have anymore babies)
she was sad as she wanted another baby girl... time passes by and miracle happens when she was pregnant with my sister after 9 years ... later on followed by my brother 2 years later....
at that time our financial status was not very good...


although my dad owns his own business but my mom is still working as a land evaluator to evaluate the price of landed property to add more income to the family as she is already pregnant with my sis.... so she didn't look after her body well....
and with the early menopause she has been aging in a tremendous speed .... while working in such a age i felt i am very useless once again.... although her health don't allow it but she will try her best to go to work....
this admires me a lot....
but is her struggle all worth it when i have the thought of stopping my studies ??? i felt ashamed of myself....
i am such a weakling....
but i really fear of loosing someone i care so much....
i am a very loyal person my feelings stay very long...
i cant imagine it if i were to loose anyone i care about....
when i went back last semester break i get to know that her gastric is getting worse...
her migraine never seem to stop ...
her body is aching almost everyday (from standing the whole day)...
her insomnia is getting worse... when i advise her to go for a check up... she answer me if found out something is wrong ... what can we do... no money ... she don't want to wait to die...
sometimes when i see her doze of soundly on the sofa i will begin to cry... i dunno but my heart can feel aches .... as she seems to sleep so soundly like a baby ... she looks so tired ...
so when i heard Vernon mom's condition i cry too... i can't to see motherly son love its my weakness...


my friends keep asking me why am i emo....
the next semester is coming but i have no money...
my mom is sick i cant do a thing...
i quarrel with friends and she disappoint me....
housemate giving me a hard time uncooperative
i was so sad so sad...
and no one is there .... but i am very happy to know a few good Zoo Friends... thank you guys ....
when i was down among my 3 best friend at least 1 was there still to support me


so after thinking all over ....
i have to fight this war no matter what it takes... for the sake of mommy.... i am gonna be that someone and bring my mom to see the world


Luv,
~GiNo

Runaway....

when i walk down the street...the street is empty...
when call out a name...there's no sound...
not even the breeze...not even the rain....
it all seem so dark....before night fall

i thought there would be a call...
but there's nothing at all...
so this is my life...
i want to survive...

Please...please look at me...
i am by your side...
do you know i existed...
please...please understand me...
i am by your side
please come talk to me....please come talk to me

when walk down the shore...i thought found some ore's...
i thought had 3...but there is nothing for me...
there's not even the sand...not even one man
it all seem so dark... before sunset

i thought there would be a call...
but there's nothing at all...
so this is my life...
i want to survive...

Please...please look at me...
i am by your side...
do you know i existed...
please...please understand me...
i am by your side
please come talk to me....please come talk to me

i feel like a fool drowning in a pool thought i would be save...
but leaving me there as there is no one to care
i hate it when i am wrong...
i will always be strong...
but i am tired all along ....

as i wish to runaway....runaway....runaway from everything that people say
runaway... runaway... runaway from Hippocratic way



Luv,
~GiNo

how i hope i can be home now ....
i really miss my mom !!
when i were interviewed by Rein and Jaron for Astro "Jia Yu" about what i want to tell my mom that time !
i really mean what i say !!
i said i would like to tell my mom "I love You"
i never told her before i just text her before once on my 21st birthday...
i dunno why but i find hard to tell her...
but now the crisis i am in i wish can tell her !!
i am so tired of life....
sometimes feel like killing myself better ...
but i tak sampai hati wanna leave my family and friends behind....
well hate it.....
hate it....
well i hopw this downward fall graph will come to an end soon ...


miss so much mommy .... muax....



for those who can see your mom and dad everyday .... don't take things for granted .... tell them that you loved them .... hug them and ...... appreciate them while you have the chance... as theres alot of people dont have the chance to do so ...

Luv,
~GiNo

Vote EArth Suppport EArth Hour !

today 28th from 8.30 p.m to 9.30 p.m was the earth hour
i fully support this action as our very own planet is facing a great danger
we as inhabitants of mother earth should greatly protect it
so we should support this action 110 %

i was in ikea having dinner then proceed to tesco for some grocery but was afraid i didn't manage to make it in time for this event
luckily i the house light wasn't on as there was nobody at home...
well at least i did my part as a inhabitants of mother earth ....
i really hope people are aware that our very own home is dieing !!
so we have to save it now before its too late
so ....
Support Earth hour and switch off our lights !!!

for more info visit :
http://www.earthhour.org.my/main.php

Too Fast.... Too Furious.... Too Long.... Too Desperate

Well when someone stay lonely for too long...
they will most likely become too desperate...
well as a friend and a roommate i should not stay quite....
well you should be more careful...

even though one house has stayed unoccupied for almost 23 years... when there's potential tenant one can still choose which tenant to rent your house to.... or maybe give a good look at the tenant first ... as anyhow land-lady will still be the one with the assets and liabilities... well as owner of the house anything happens the lost is always taken by the owner ... tenants are those who come and go .... what if another suitable tenant that came in to this house and stayed forever... would the owner feel sorry that the house is no longer new ???



Choices choices...
everyone make choices....
maybe this Landlady has been lonely for too long... envying on everyone around her for having their pages of their coloring book called life colored....
well being empty maybe a good assets ...
just need to appreciate it and maybe she will live happier...

what do i mean by too fast !!! well kissing or a peck on the cheek on the 1st date is consider romantic and sweet...
but exchanging oral fluid is something i felt its way too fast ...
3rd day planting strawberry on the holy garden of Eden is way out of hand ....
trying to pick the fruit is even worse....
within 6 days the landlady have an invitation to use marker and color the damn book...
well landlady may have handled it well by not accepting but ....
i am too furious to know its because too many people around... its not because landlady has self conscious of the danger and responsibility she will face...
LOVE is does not mean action in bed.... it means understanding and caring between two great hearts combine into one...
well its too fast....
if some love you for your body... then that's not love that's just plain white WHORING....
so beware....
some relationship takes a few months or a few years to come to this state
but a few days is just too stupid....
so i can just say...

TOO FAST ... TOO FURIOUS ... TOO LONG ... TOO DESPERATE

Luv,
~GiNo

Single Awareness Day Recap !!

Valentines Day to me is Single Awareness Day
so its a day for me to remember i am single wakakaka.....
well nevermind.....

Valentines only what !!
even the parking lot for single female driver is also vacant....
what the....
this world got so many couple meh ???

lucky thing watching "The Curious Case of Benjamin Button"
paid off !!!!
so i had a nice single awareness day after all !!
ish dummy Gacky they all went clubbing ....

Luv,
~GiNo

A Friend in need is a friend indeed !!!

when u see 1 of your close friend in need what will you do ???
well to make things worse is that you what the problem is but u cant help to change a single thing at all...
the feeling is not fun at all...

seeing tears shed and hearts bled ...
but what i can do i kept quite on my bed....
what i can do is a mental support and help whenever i can....
as sometimes my strength is limited...
as i am also only human ...
there is bounds and places i can't get to ...
all i can do is empathize ...

sometimes i don't know how to speak to this friend...
and always end up misunderstanding and we will meet in a stale-mate...
i am a good listener and a happy person...
sometimes i feel that "why so serious" keep it happy then it will be okay !!!
worries will make things worse...
sometimes i hope i am very rich and powerful so i can help whoever i wanted...
without boundaries and limitation...
and i am not trying to be so wannabe but i have learn alot in my journey in life so far...
so i have learn how to put myself in others people's shoes ...

Luv,
~GiNo