Saturday, October 31, 2009

Heavy ....

hearts are heavy
well still i have to do it.....

i have been neglecting my blog for a months now 2 weeks in penang and 2 weeks in PJ
well i am back....

well i have been back penang healing ....
from what ??
from all this nonsense in PJ

although the moments in Penang
or where i call it "Home"
was boring but i can find it relaxing....

Everyday i had the same routine....
my sister will wake me up around 6.55 in the morning
to fetch her to school....
i would drive my white gen-2 out and drop her ...
drive back home
wake my mommy up and then go back to sleep....
wake up eat lunch with bro and sis....

after lunch will sit down play ps2 or psp or watch anime with my bro
at night go eat dinner with family aroud 11 after mommy finishes her work

everyday repeat the very same routine exceot a few days was like...
go meet up with friends yumcha
met Shwu Fen and Dawn....
went out with Ansel and celebrate birthday with Chloe
have a date with Marion
dim sum with Lex
gathered with Ivan and Alvin.... to have a long dinner gossip chat with Girlie
it was so much fun....
even life was slow and dull but i can really relate myself to this place i call home....

this time back i learn alot of things....
my high school principal reverend brother Paul Ho has left the school...
a junior turn to a girl (ps: i was in a boys school)
schoolmate have baby d....
some other schoolmates getting married soon....
some have been in politics...
some have gone to Japan...
some prefer to come back from UK to work...
some came home and failed exams but prefer to stroll around shopping...
some become a pilot...
some have became a buyer...
some still retain their path or some even decides to let go and go somewhere else to start over....

home was never the same but yet this is the place i can see myself laugh without worries, cry without hatred, sleep without nightmares and love without doubts

this time around Penang island has been listed in UNESCO so everything is protected now
and everything charge now ....
this made it even better now.....

but times flies ...
i need to leave home once more
my heart is heavy ... to leave behind
the way i comb mommy's hair,
the way me and my bro and sis cuddle in the bed
the way i roll around in my bed with my siblings
the way i drive my white Gen-2
the way my dad tells the news
the way the cool air feels
the taste of mommy's cooking
the taste of bro's cooking
the taste of friendship
the way i make my sister shout
the way my bro cook
the way that i worry less


missing every single bit of it......


PJ seems just like the forbidden city....
a place of vengeance, a place of hatred, a place of betrayal, and a place of fakers
life in the city is filled with doubts...
as i know when i step back here war will begin....


Luv,
~GiNo

Friday, October 2, 2009

we live we learnt

23 years in the world ....
and i have pick up quite alot of things in this walk of life...

once there was some one who told me...
"you don't have to tell the world you sacrifice a lot for them you just have enjoy helping them...."
-My Mom

once there was some one who told me...
"always be courageous to fight for your dreams..."
-Girlie Thoh

once there was someone who told me...
"friends knows when to let you show off..."
-Raeburn Ng

once there was some one who told me...
"friends never say bye they just say see you..."
-Jiao Wei

once there was someone who told me...
"hidup biar selamba... "
-Jasmine Chuah

once there was some one who told me...
"dude your too young to worried about life on your birthdays..."
-James Lim

once there was some one who told me...
"i am here to buy you guys a little bit of happiness..."
-Vernon Ong

once there was some one who told me...
"when you wanna give up think about the road you have through..."
-Chili Wong

once there was someone who told me...
"don't make a promise if you can't keep it..."
-Alice Chong

once there was some one who told me...
"every cloud has its silver lining..."
-Marion Grace

once there was some one who told me...
"nobody knows what tomorrow holds appreciate your love ones 1st..."
-Ej Lim

once there was some one who told me...
"there is nothing to fear i still have you guys..."
-Gacky Wai

once there was some one who told me...
"why so calculative if we are friends..."
-Ansel Ng

once there was some one who told me...
"don't let people hold you back...go all out a reach for your dreams"
- Ah Bing

once there was some one who told me...
"you must not let people who look down on you condemned your future..."
-Tony Lim

once there was some one who told me...
"love is about giving and taking...its not about how much you gave and how much you will get back..."
-Viviene Choo

once there was some one who told me...
"sex is a very intimate process of 2 lovers showing their affections for each other not about pleasure..."
-Ester Soon

once there was some one who told me...
"friendship is about using each other..."
-Ivan Teh

once there was some one who told me...
"friendship is about watching each others back"
-Edi

well this these are the people who say quotations in my life that i remembered ...
there is still alot but ... i wont be writing it down....

there alot of influential people in my life...
my mom ... my hero...
some that thought me how to sacrifice, to love, to hate and to be myself...
along the way.... i met with Girlie Thoh a mentor a dance teacher and a god mother....
she was the one who encourage me and letting me realize my talents...
and encourage me to fight for my interest and not my parents interest....

then there was the twins Alice and Marion who thought me about love, sacrifice and relationships.... and this where i 1st experience true friendship....
it was Jasmine the one who is ever so independent and follow me all the from Penang to KL to start up new here... she is the one who told me i am good looking person and should not hide it...
hahaha funny right ....?

then there's Ansel who teaches me what is breakthrough by accepting himself...
it was then when i reach kl i met Edi ... which is helping me all the time...
although he is busy with his life... he is like a big brother to me at that time....

not long after i met EJ who is some one who is not afraid to take sides...
a friend indeed and some one u really can call friend... some one who can watch your back....

its was after the Mtv asia awards where i met Vernon that thought me about brotherhood... someone that lead me and evolve my art sense... and Edmond some one that open my horizons to the world Filming....

when i reach degree there was Chili a girl who always have my back cover...
whenever i needed the help she was there ....
then later on as time passes there came people like the Zoo Friends which always never failed to make my day...
they were the once who never failed to give me a chance to share with them what i have learnt so far....

my life is still changing and improving passing by the lessons of life...
well i am not perfect ... but i hope people would accept my imperfection
and accept me for who i am and not what i am not....
influential people, influential quotation, influential life...
thanks you .....


once again happy belated birthday Gino Cheah Sin Liang



Luv,
~GiNo

23rd year among the living !!!

i am 23 years old already....
means i am one step closer to death ... hahaha
well life and death is part of life....
why taking it so serious .....? right ?

well this year surprisingly i am not emo....
well most of the time i am kinda emo during birthdays....
but this year i am not ....
and other than that i learn more about life once again....

well my birthday was great....
My zoo friends plan a really great surprise...
really caught me out of my expectation...
ps: they suck at surprises coz they got busted in almost every surprise but this time it really got me... good job guys
never expected it.... as i thought we were celebrating for another girl Xin Leng ....
and she thought it was for me....
but it was for both of us...
we went to barbecue at May's house... that's the 1st leg of the celebration.....


barbecue gonna cause cancer ...



ding dong Gacky....with oily face



Lian with some funny freakish pose



whats with the eyes girl..... and the senyum sinis-sinis



Chili too happy to see the chicken wings



Burger Liew so happy lor.... got chicken



me and XinLeng cutting cake hahahaha cutting cake ceremony



Tupai handing over their present to me



see got camera recording some more like what conference like that



we are not getting married



my cake and her cake



look what they gave me.... they really love me ....
yep its sony erricsson K770i....crazy right
i love you guys too GD3 and my Zoo Friends....plus EJ for the precious present....
and EJ thanks for the Pull And Bear Wallet, Angus for the RM30, Hui Jun for your white chocolate macadamia and oreo cheese from Secret Recipe...
that day almost made me teary .....
lucky thing i can tahan or else sure habis let them record all the ugly part.....
boys and girls thank you i am really really very touched by the gift....
you guys know i need a phone a lot and guys go to the extend give me one ....
thank you guys so much it really meant alot to me....


during the eve we went to Hulu Langat for dinner.... and counting down

well after we makan pose for some pictures



group pics with Boon, Angus, Ej and HuiJun



as usually Angus likes to act cute



HuiJun such a poser



Boon what are you thinking dude



thats a flare ok !

then after that they were suppose surprise me at home....
but they failed to do so because i saw Ej in her car ...
i was suspecting something
but i still i never thought will have so many people in my room surprising me.....
well thank you guys EJ, Hui Jun, Angus, Tupai, Chili, Gacky, Jean Cui, Kevin, ChunHwa, Lian and Keng-Keng....


birthday went to kimchi haru again.... they surprise me with KimBap again...
well they told me KimBap is usually eaten on celebration so well What The Fuck....



bloated ..... after the meal....


hope you guys enjoy the pictures....
guys i love u guys alot ....
thanks for all the wishes through sms .... from Singapore to Taiwan thanks ...
sorry that it cost money hahaha....
and thanks to all the 171 wishes in Facebook hahahaa...

once again thanks and i love you guys ....
i really appreciate it ..... thanks for all the love and care
its unforgettable


Luv,
~GiNo