Saturday, September 25, 2010

Ranting !!

what's going on with me recently....


felt so tired ...
emotionally, physically, and mentally !!!
everything is not going my way....


my birthday is coming again....
things are going so wrong.....
i feel so sad....
i am the strong Gino that everyone thought i am....
yes i am ... i kept telling myself....
but i getting tired....
there is so many things i am going through alone....
no one in this competitive world seems trustable .....
its me against the world.....


so many things inside me right now.... but all inside are just sorrow....
you think you know everything but the truth is you don't know anything....
coming out into the world is  very tiring.... there is no mommy to run to when your sad.....
there is no one to pad your hair and say everything will be ok....
well its because we grow up....
no one to rely on but ourself.....


sometimes i feel who am i ???
what's my value in everybody's heart....
someone keep telling me i think too much....
yes i think too much...
i am paranoid....
i am chauvinistic....
i am a control freak....
i am lousy idiot who thinks he knows everything.....


i am just hurt..... 
hurt hurt hurt....
tears don't even flow anymore....
when until i can really let down my guard......



Luv,
~GiNo



some random rants..... 

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

What is me ? what is us ? what is we ?

sometimes I feel sick and tired of everything....
i feel like i need to go to a place where nobody knows me....
unfamiliar and yet safe....
felt like running away from all the commitments i have with me.....

sometimes i felt nobody understands me at all....
i always do question the meaning of life... its to vast for me to know all now.....
i always do question the meaning of love... its to complicated for me to understand now.....
i always do question the meaning of ME...

well me is a word i would use all the time....
whenever you are not happy and want someone to shout at.....
theres only me....
when you want someone to really care about your feelings....
theres only me....
if want to find someone to hear random rants......
theres only me.....
whenever you need someone to read your mind.....
theres only me....
whenever you have something to share....
then there's us....
whenever you praise and said things that soothes the ear......
then there's us....
whenever give out care and love.....
then there's us....
whenever you're have more money.....
then there's us....
whenever you look gorgeous.....
then there's us.....
whenever you share.....
then there is a we.....
whenever you go party......
then there is a we....
whenever you're having fun.....
then there is a we....


its all about the giving and taking..... LOVE ??? LIFE ??? ME ??? US ??? WE ???
i dont mind giving more....
i dont hope for repayment.....
all i need is appreciation.....






Luv,
~>GiNo