yummies from penang

well this post is to show some food from penang .... well not all lar is juz a few food i took pics of lar when i was back in penang !









actualy still got alot i din take picture ... coz was saving memory and battery for the grand conference ... will show pics of the conferrence soon enough !!

Luv,
~GiNo

Return !

I am very sorry guys for not updating.... coz i went back Penang .... so cant online !!!
i went back to rest, relax, heal, and of course to attend a very important conference....
which is THE V CONFERENCE..... consisting of 5000 people from 200 different countries all around the world .... a very prestigious event of all time .... various artiste perform such as Jaclyn Victor, Camelia etc ...
well i will post the pics later on.... now i am back KL d.... so can finally online back .....
coz when i am in penang i online in MCD... inside my car hahaha.... jimat the money wakakaka....
well i will update more on my hometown soon .....

Luv,
~GiNo

Italiannies

as promise those were the pics of the food i ate at italiannies .....
tell u 1 thing its something you people shouldnt miss !!!!
cheers..... penang ..... watch i will be back !!!! anyone want anything from penang ???

Luv,
~GiNo

The Misconception Rhapsody

Tired.....
of being all alone.....
i am fighting for something....
which still have still no return....
tired.....
of fighting all alone....
but i kept telling myself i am not....
what a big fat lie...
tired.....
i kept telling.....
i always knew you....
but seems like i was wrong
tired...
of lieing to myself....
that you are the same old you....
people change ....
tired...
i always thought you are perfect....
as now you turn out to be ....
nothing but a hipocrit....
tired....
of trying to be smart ....
of giving what i had....
and nothing in return....
tired....
of thinking you care for me....
but you werent there...
when i needed you....
tired...
of waiting for ur sms.....
a sign of concern when i am sick....
waited ...... not even a how are you....
tired....
of being the one to the initiative...
as i am stupid to do so.....
as i hate those eye which less sincerity.....
tired....
of telling myself i am important in your heart....
but seems like the importance....
is elsewhere.....
tired....
of being lonely....
awaiting for the rain to drop....
in land ruin by drought.....
well its time....
to let go ....
be a new person....
hope we dont cross path again.....

Luv,
~GiNo

Hold on....

i hold...on
i hold down whats inside
i hold...on
coz i know that what i want is a thing that people can't devide
hearts torned to pieces....
without knowing i still smile with happiness
i acted but ....
as this cut ....
so deep ....
i weep ....

can anyone hear me ....
i cried from within ....
do anyone fear me ....
well i dont think so ...

why me ?
those eyes ...
those look ....
those lies ....
i am furious yet i am sad ....
am i right to hide the cry from within ?
i thought i am glad ...
but i am not ....
i am torn apart ....
as it feels like dart ....
gushing through ....
i cant stop one

i know now ...
i hold on ....
i hold on because i chose to hold on....

Luv,
~GiNo

mommy dearest

well... i dedicate this post for my dearest mommy

leaving home is something that all moms worried about ....
because us the sons and daughters is their life ....
she carried us in her tiny body .... until it grow bigger bigger and bigger
we cant imagine the hardship she have been through the weight the maternity sickness.....
does anyone know how it feels to get frequent muscle cramp ....
does anyone realise the weight they carried is very heavy .....
does anyone realises their backbones aches at times due to the weight they carry.....
does anyone know they cant control their mood swings
well mothers is the most compasionate beings created by god.....

they gave birth to us after a 9-10 months carrying this burden on their body.....
and when they are giving birth to us this little life to earth they have to go through a major pain of life ..... even more painful then the migrain i am having rite now .....
after we were born .... they took after us .... brought us up......
with love and care.... the tears and blood shed for us ....
they pamper .... they feed us and they love us......

and when we grow up we tend to forget ......
the sacrifices they gave for us.....
we tend to treat them badly .....
for every word we said and done will hurt them deep down in their hearts .....
a mothers heart is made of glass especialy when its with us the children....
we got carried away .... our mind and thoughts are different already when we grow up .....
as we will forget the rights and wrong of saying certain words.....
sometimes mother maybe over protecting
but its because they care ..... earn their trust and they will let you be.....
sometimes mother will like to know what exactly youre doin and wants a report like reporting to your girlfriend ..... well its because they are worried......

moms is the greatest thing on earth as last time i didnt know how much my mom love me ....
i always accuse my mom for loving my younger brother more then me ....
well after moving here staying alone ....
having an independent life then only i realise.....
she love me so much ..... i feel so sorry as i never thought of it before.....
i never apreciate the things she have done for me.....
now i know she sacrifice so much is because she love me a lot .....
well telling my mom "i love you" seems hard for me ....
dunno why i feel awkward .... but i will tell her soon .... because i dont wanna regret when its too late.....
well i started this post i realise 1 thing which is i dont even have a piece of my moms pic with me .... what kind of anak am i .... well felt bad.... and miss her alot .....
well people always start to appreciate .....
when they are done
when they are gone
when its too late .....
so tell your mom you love her ....
happy mothers day to all the most wonderful people on earth the mothers.....

Luv,
~GiNo

Self PamPering Day

ok this post is to talk about May the 8th
what day is May 8th ???
what festival falls on this particular date ???

well to tell you the truth it is ....
Mr Gino Cheah's Self proclaimed "Self PamPering Day"
well on that particular thursday .....
i pampered myself thoroughly .....
by kick starting my day with a quality wake up .....
then after bath .....

when to 1U with Charine, EJ, Hui Wen and Samson
we have our lunch in Italiannies.....
ate delicious Bread loaf dip with vinegar and olive oil
then ate Angel Hair Pomodoro and Classic Pizza......
for dessert we ate Tiramisu .... well this is something people shouldnt miss.....
it was delicious ..... will upload the pics on the food soon .....

went to watch !!!! Speed Racer later
Go speed racer , go speed racer , go speed racer go ......
wakakaka.... cheesy song but its nise......
its so colorful the whole movie and they make it like a cartoon brought to live .....
well good intro Pun Pun....

then went home then got prepared and head down to Maison for Clubbing......
1st time went with the whole team.....
my god so many people .... tak pernah go wit so many people at once...... the guys go in for chopping that time already like 20 over people d.....
drank alot because Simon kept pouring it into my mouth then Ah Yow also then Caecee then it goes on and on.....

after clubbing went for bah kut teh as supper at Kepong nearby Caecee's house.....
wah was hungry and tired so everything seems so delicious .... wakakakaka
by the time i reach home its already 5 something in the morning.... by the time bathed and blow dry my hair i slept at 6 .......

wah pampered myself once in a while because i will be back to Penang next week so if i din manage to grow fat ....
i am gonna make mom cry again ....
as i said i promise myself not to make her cry anymore .....
i am man of words..... i kept promises i wont make promises i cant fulfiled

Luv,
~GiNo

Fever

i was having terrible fever yesterday.....
actualy my body is already heaty d.....
so my antibody is kinda weak......
and you know from my last post i have been trying my best to stay healthy as i would make my mom sad again !!!!
i was trying my best to prevent myself from sick again .....

the day before yesterday Charine slept on my place .......i have been very nise talking to her and asking her to sleep back her place but that girl tak dengar cakap insist on sleeping my bed and sumore suggest me to sleep on the floor !!!!
WTF.....

nevermind i sleep her place lor no choice.....
the next morning !!!!
i woke up and started to scold people d coz i was so furious i was passed sickness by Charine .....
what makes me more mad is .... she sumore keep telling people that we sick also must sick together mah..... WTF

then went working later on .... with the fever..... then the air cond suddenly got colder and colder till it chilled my back bones....... omigowd i havent felt such suffering from a fever before.......
because i seldom fall ill .....
after work i can feel my whole body like on fire....
i was shivering from inside out .....
then i went home to rest !!!!
strait away i went to bed.... cover my whole body with blanket ate a 600mg panadol
then i went to sleep !!!
after 2 hours later i can still feel my whole body on fire although my whole body is already soaked wet and my bed is also wet i should be better d .... but..... i am still like before.......as hot as ever.....
then i was so irritated so i went to sleep another hour.... when i woke up seems like Charine and Ej is not back home yet.... the whole house is so quite....... i was panicing at 1st i tought my ear has gone death or something because my laptop is already at max volume already but i didnt realise that i plug in head phone.....
suddenly felt lonely....
thought of finding people to chat ...... i know EJ , Charine and Samson is in a function so i cant kacau them ..... so i called that perasan boy Samson Ngai ..... he didnt answer my call should be DOTAing again .... kanasai....
then after that i called Joanne to tell her i am sick and i cant go to UCSI for the ambassador job.... but she also didnt pick up....so sms her didnt reply me.....
sad.... so i sms Jason .... mana tahu he also no free to entertain me .... haiz....
no 1 to talk to .... so i went back to sleep .....because my body still on fire....

after resting ..... i awaken by Charine , Ej and Samson sit around me asking how am i.... but condition worsen....
haiz.... wat kinda fever is that ..... they kept me acompany ......then Charine started to wipe my body with water and put cloth on my forhead to keep my temperature low.....
but my my temperature is stil very high ....
then after that i ate medicine again ......
after that from night until morning is Ej and Samson by my side to change the cloth and puting ice bag on my head.... they kept me company ..... they didnt sleep the whole night and i know in the morning they need to go Ntv7 somemore so i was worried that they have not enough rest...
but they refuse to sleep keep wiping my body wit cold water to cool down my body .... but my body really tak dengar cakap because the temperature go on and off.....
funny Samson told me your temperature to high u might burn ur brains then become "tai B"
hahahaha ... then they kept doin the wiping and ice bags till morning already around 7 am d.... my temperature drop abit already but still as hot as ever .... then i finally agree to consult doctor.... after ate a few tablets got better already ....
i promise myself i dont wanna get so weak anymore i felt like was paralise or something.....
haiz......

once again i need to express my gratitude to Ej and Samson ....... tonnes of love and care from you all that made me feel so much better today...

Luv,
~GiNo

Realisation

well how should i start this !!!

erm... i would like to talk about what i have been going through lately.....
well past few days ... i have goin through ... what do you call it... erm
realisation .... i have been doin some thinking....
i was extremely moody then .....

well as my close friend they would know this.....
alot of people envy me ... for what ....???
people say i look good, people say i am leaving a happy life, people thought i have no worries, people thought i dont have love problems, people say i am rich, people thought i am this i am that ....
but deep down inside does anyone know that i am not perfect ?? .....
i have alot of worries .... i have a problem which i cant solve just yet
the 1 i love dont even know i love ...
i am living on the edge and nodody know....
i am nothing but an ordinary boy.....

living a life all on my own in KL is not easy !!!!
i have been leaving on just RM300 per month only.... how do i manage it when my room rental is already rm200 so i live on rm100 only !!!!
well thats why i work freelance alot .....
well i am not goin to say anything about money anymore coz it spoil the mood
well the main point i wanna express is my mom once told me "Gino you must sang sang seng seng coz i cannot manage to feed you anymore"

well i kept telling myself i am already 21 going 22 ..... but still i am not able to help to relief the burden of the family ... which make it worse is i am somemore the eldest son of the family.....
well life is not easy on me .... well 1 thing helps me alot ..... a word of wisdom from Quest Net "well if it doesnt kill you, it will only make you stronger"
i think this is so true because from all this challenges i now am stronger ..... spiritualy

2 days ago i was at Ming Tien when my mother called me .....
she told me ....my student bill has arrived at home already ... its rm4K plus....
well she ask me how much has i collected already ????
when i answer her back ....
she ask me .... are u sick you again !!!!
i told her i recover jor .... juz body a little bit heaty thats all....
then she ask me "the other day you fell sick already now sick again ar ???"
i dunno how to answer her... as i know she will be worried about me .....
well she ask why didnt i go to the doctor .... i say must jimat .....

suddenly ...... the phone was quite..... at that time the whole world like stop just like that
i heard a quite sob......
then i know i have hurt her feelings again .... at that time the whole world like stop just like that.....
i ask "why are you crying ??? "
mom tell me ....
"do you know how hopeless am i to stay back here only to here you sick overthere and not be able to even look after you"
"you know how hopeless does it feel to see you sick and not able to be by your side to care for you and to ask you are ok on the next day"

after hearing that ..... uncontiously my eyes started to leak ..... leaking drip and drip of tears....
from that moment i can here alot laughter by the next table
when i turn around i saw all my friends was so happily chatting and joking.....
at that very moment my heart was so sore ....
as i know i cannot go back there as i might spoil the mood
and i dont want them to see me in tears.... and i dont want anyone to symphatise me as i am a very strong person....
this will make them worry also.....
well at that moment as well i thought to myself ....
why am i so weak ..... why am i so useless by not being able to stop her from crying ......
well i am gonna eat more and more to be fat so she wont cry again when she see me.....

to be frank i am afraid of goin back also as i know when my mom saw me .... she will bring me go eat "ho liao" then that way how to jimat .....
so i am afraid ... what should i do ......

i have alot in my mind .....
but i know 1 thing is eventhough i am in KL here living by myself but i am always cared by my clossest friends......(family)
i am so touch by you all ..... when i am down you guys were there...
eventhough you guys werent there to borrow me a shoulder to cry on but....
i really apreciate that and i know is you people that knows me best.....
last but not least is .....

GOD is very fair he created everyone with its strong and weakness

PS: i wrote this not for people to emphatise me but its for me to express out the things that is
supress in my heart coz at least it will make me feel better....

Luv,
~GiNo