The Dog Days Are Over

Well have been in a hell of a downfall for me this pass few months....
things don't seem to go my way....

failing an interview (sucks)...

messing up my whole planning for my future (double suck)...

emo relationship (triple suck)...

haywire the whole moving house thingy
PS: i just moved to a new place (Quadruple suck)...

feeling lost (quintuple suck)...

well everything just suck with a capital "C"
but at least with all those rubbish going on with my life i manage to actually survived it...
3 cheers for me "hip hip hurray" x 3
well everyone has their ups and downs well just this song the dog days....
well my dog days are over and i am taking that damn elevator up...
so dedicating this song now to everyone who has been experiencing the dog days now so be happy as its gonna be over real soon...

Happiness, hit her like a train on a track
Coming towards her, stuck still no turning back
She hid around corners and she hid under beds
She killed it with kisses and from it she fled
With every bubble she sank with a drink
And washed it away down the kitchen sink

The dog days are over
The dog days are done
The horses are coming
So you better run

Run fast for your mother run fast for your father
Run for your children for your sisters and brothers
Leave all your love and your longing behind you
Can't carry it with you if you want to survive

The dog days are over
The dog days are done
Can you hear the horses
'Cause here they come

And I never wanted anything from you
Except everything you had
And what was left after that too. oh.

Happiness hit her like a bullet in the back
Struck from a great height
By someone who should know better than that

The dog days are over
The dog days are gone
Can you hear the horses
'Cause here they come

Run fast for your mother and fast for your father
Run for your children for your sisters and brothers
Leave all your love and your longing behind you
Can't carry it with you if you want to survive

The dog days are over
The dog days are gone
Can you hear the horses
Because here they come

The dog days are over
The dog days are gone
Can you hear the horses
Because here they come

Luv,

~GiNo

Graduation !

looks like 4 years of university is finally gonna be over....

the days that i fear so much has finally come....

i can remember how much fear i went through when i left high school....

the feeling is coming back again....

and this time the feeling is stronger.....

within this four years i have met a lot of people.....

all heights and colors .....

but we will soon depart to our different journey in life..............

the people i will miss the most will be Zoo Fwenz...

you guys have been there for me all these time....

i know i wont find any people like you anywhere else.....

i remember it very clearly up till today how we met ...

its still so clear in my mind.....

from how we come together from all the different walks of life.....

how we grow fonder by photography assignments, how we travel together to places,

how we celebrate birthdays...

how we go outings...

how we won competition...

how we get tired together...

we shared smiles, laughter, tears and anger but we still come back to this one big happy family...

its a shame time pass me by so fast...

the moment i fear all this while has finally arrived...

all my bestiest will be having their own life....

walking their own path... i wonder when will it be the time we all will cross path once again like this wonderful 3 years of degree together...

i really would like to thank you guys for going through my foul mouth with me...

how i bully some of you... how i tease you guys...

how you guys are there for me ... the phone the present you guys gave me i will keep it always in my heart i appreciate it alot...

i truely believe our journey does not end here....

we will be meeting up alot talking about our working life....

sharing experience together wont we ???

i hope it wont get lesser and lesser as time passes as we are one

zoo fwenz forever...

i love you guys

happy graduation guys

Luv,

~GiNo

a few months ago this date 27th of every month marks the start of an endless peril bound within me...

but this is the 1st time ever 27th i feel free

as how wonderful life is now you're in the world

this is YOUR song ....<3

i hope you don't mind i put down in words....

How wonderful life is now you're in the world....

a toast for a wonderful one month for you and me ... and years to come ...

a warm dedication to you ...

YOUR SONG

My gift is my song
And this one's for you
And you can tell everybody
That this is your song
It maybe quite simple
But now that it's done
Hope you don't mind
I hope you don't mind
That I put down in words
How wonderful life is now you're in the world

Sat on the roof
And I kicked off the moss
Well some of the verses well
They got me quite cross
But the sun's been kind
While I wrote this song
It's for people like you that
Keep it turned on

So excuse me for forgetting
But these things I do
You see I've forgotten
If they're green or they're blue
Anyway the thing is what I really mean
Yours are the sweetest eyes I've ever seen

And you can tell everybody
This is your song
It may be quite simple
But now that it's done
I hope you don't mind
I hope you don't mind that I put down in words

How wonderful life is now you're in the world
I hope you don't mind
I hope you don't mind that I put down in words
How wonderful life is now you're in the world

luv,

~GiNo

TANGLED feelings !!!

final year project was like hell !!!

having sleepless nights and countless stress...

sigh ....

i certainly know the life of the creative line is like that... but...

how much to others know about our life....?

thats the question...

i am all my besties therapist...

i hear their cry for help... i help advice and nurture their weeping heart....

well not so great (hyper-balled)

i was basically just doing what a friend needs... someone to talk to and to hear them out....

at least my friends has someone....

sigh ... what about me ??? i thought i had someone....

but i seem to be expecting too much from that someone...

when i am sad and moody still nobody knows...

when i am moody i have to control afraid i might cause fights...

when i wanna share something i need to pick the correct timing....

what i am feeling who can tell ? as usual nobody ... i am a great actor at heart....

acted all the while.... i lay my mask down for someone...

but does that someone know about it....

i am such a nothing ....

i can't even let someone feel secure...

cant let someone understands me a little bit....

everyones wants me to hear them out ....

who wants to hear me out ??? WHO ???

feeling so complicated now like this tangled wire !!!

Luv,

~GiNo

This is It !!!

Currently I have been so caught up with Final Year Project....

hardly had time for anything sorry to neglect my blog so long....

well people always say a good girl friend is someone that influence their other half to be good and excel in their undergoing...

previously i have been through damnest road in my life...

caught in a triangle of wrong...

people hates me... friends thinks i am wrong... friends dont support... studies going down the drain... emotionally unstable... the whole world went upside down....

so many things i can't say nor tell ... when i need to say something there was no one... not even blog it out... i was so bound in to that damn relationship....

the day was dark everyday to me... there was no smile... there was no peace... there was no sweet dreams... there was no good night sleep...

suddenly sunshine came in..... you're hand came in and pull me out from this oblivion....

well i was glad that i console a friend in need...

i never knew you're the one...

its been awhile we know each other but never thought you would be my saviour...

thanks for coming into my life...

bringing me out of this mess... you're the one thats have influence me to be good....

all the things turn wayward up now...

smile filled my face... my life is not filled with guilt no more...

now my design is going better and my studies is not all haywired....

you are my savior i am glad its 27th i ask you.... and now i am so happy now....

so motivated in doing anything... you're like my energy booster....

thank you for coming into my life at the right moment....

love is like a knot....

its a beautiful mess....

thanks for bringing me into the mess together....

Luv,

~GiNo

What Can i Do ???

well people may think my life is beautiful...

but those who are close with me knows my life is nothing but a living nightmare...

there is so many people pursuing me in search for happiness...

but i chose someone else which turn so many people down in disappointment ...

its not perfect happiness for me...

but i have heard one of my seniors say

everybody wants to be happy but no ones wants to feel pain,

but how do we get a rainbow if there was no rain

well i now i know that ... feelings are so uncontrollable is something beyond you and me...

so what can i do... really what can i do...

hope you enjoy the song....

Luv,

~GiNo

Love or Sex ?

Love ...

what is love ?

well does love has to come with sex ?

in my opinion... love should be just plain love...

sex ? i prefer to called it making love (call me a thing from the past if you like)

to me making love is something you share with someone you really love and care for...

if there is no making love involve is it still called love ?

to me LOVE don't need sex to fuel it, so it could be lasted longer....

if it is true love making love can wait... wait until the relationship between two are strong and stable.

some may say that this thinking only exist fairy tales and movies....

well life is like a movie... love is like a story...

because today there is too much thing that people think about ... afraid of this and that....

scared of what people might think ... fear of the affects it will cause...

if its love then drop everything you think and feel your heart and follow your soul to love courageously...

Love ?

love means no boundaries.... 2 peoples world merging into one....

no secrets... no hidden agenda... faith only

who is to give ? who is to take ?

do that really matter ?

if love is at account then it don't matter...

if you really love someone.... even unappreciated you will be willingly to offer more....

no matter sadness and tears will emerge but to me thats just the sign to tell us that we are still alive...

well making love and sex this 2 words... whats the difference ?

sex is for fun... u had it... you forget it after tomorrow you wake up another normal day...

making love is a level where you make out filled with happiness and care for each other....

remember in your heart...

i may be living in denial you say but...

to me love needs sacrifice and forgiveness to make it possible

as nobody is perfect in this world...

as ones imperfection combines the others imperfections is what makes the couples perfect....

just like a puzzle piece put together...

ones there is someone who ask me.... "Do you believe in forever ?"

well my answer after so long its still yes....

even its just for a second but the moments spend together is immortalized forever in my heart....

why make love when you can enjoy the feeling of love

Luv,

~GiNo

last day of the year 31-12-2010

today marks the last day for the year.....

so many things come so many things go....

now to think back everything flash through my brain just like a that.....

alot has happen this year....

my mom age so much

she is still the prettiest girl in my heart but seeing her age hurts me....

my sister pops up a question telling me she accepted jesus out of no where !!!

well to be an understanding brother i accepted it as i am in a catholic since elementary...

relationship of best friends with Jasmine grew fonder as we had fight and whatever crap

happened it was left behind us... thank lord...

Zoo Friends grew .... from the original 8 members to 14 people...

well we are going to our zoo frenz trip later 6th January (Love them so much)

EJ comes in saying she has lost trust in alot of things and have turn to Christianity for answer

(i am sorry but sometimes the war between the heart and mind is hard to control)

PS: she finally graduated...

house-mate changes as the old ones got a little murky....

well i just take a little poison apple to kill snow white same goes to friendships....

i made it to the finals of ASQ 10 MV Directors

well even though i did not win the competition but it has been a very good experience...

and it has open a lot of doors to me...

i finally met someone... someone i could feel i can sacrifice myself for....

someone i can stay together with, someone i won't mind going the extra mild for, someone that even though i am angry at but will have the urge to forgive and continue loving that someone, someone who can melt my heart with a single smile...

but too bad i am stuck in this oblivion of no turning back.... chasing something that may not belong to me... but still i cant get my mind out of that someone....

heard the father of a close friend pass away in a motor accident....

tells me how life is so precious....

well so many people come into my life and walk away from it.....

i wish nobody ever walks away again from me again in the years to come

my new year resolution for 2011 is simple.....

-i could graduate without any obstacles....

-no more financial obstacles...

-finally been noticed and appreciated...

-to have a wonderful sad free life.....

-all my love ones to be happy and healthy

-the world to be a better place

Love,

~GiNo

What is me ? what is us ? what is we ?

sometimes I feel sick and tired of everything....

i feel like i need to go to a place where nobody knows me....

unfamiliar and yet safe....

felt like running away from all the commitments i have with me.....

sometimes i felt nobody understands me at all....

i always do question the meaning of life... its to vast for me to know all now.....

i always do question the meaning of love... its to complicated for me to understand now.....

i always do question the meaning of ME...

well me is a word i would use all the time....

whenever you are not happy and want someone to shout at.....

theres only me....

when you want someone to really care about your feelings....

theres only me....

if want to find someone to hear random rants......

theres only me.....

whenever you need someone to read your mind.....

theres only me....

whenever you have something to share....

then there's us....

whenever you praise and said things that soothes the ear......

then there's us....

whenever give out care and love.....

then there's us....

whenever you're have more money.....

then there's us....

whenever you look gorgeous.....

then there's us.....

whenever you share.....

then there is a we.....

whenever you go party......

then there is a we....

whenever you're having fun.....

then there is a we....

its all about the giving and taking..... LOVE ??? LIFE ??? ME ??? US ??? WE ???

i dont mind giving more....

i dont hope for repayment.....

all i need is appreciation.....

Luv,

~>GiNo

Who Are We ???

there has been some serious racial issues going around recently....

well tomorrow is the national day.... well my home Malaysia ...

well i would say my home as i was born here not anywhere else....

if you ask me am i a chinese ? the answer is yea... as in from china? hell no.....

i cant even speak chinese properly what makes me a real chinese ???

but i am proud to say that i am better than any mainland chinese as i am multi-lingual !

i speak chinese and english since young ... was later taught malay in schools

well if you ask me am i a chinese ? i would love to say erm malaysian ?

but issues of racism rising... (such a shame)

i am from Malaysia and Malaysia only both my parents too...

i don't get it what s wrong with the older generations still lingering in those issues of Bumiputera and non bumi's...

if achieving 1 malaysia is in mind then the rights of the people in malaysia must not be define by our skin colors....

to me malaysian is malaysian not malay, chinese, indian or any other races....

i am happy to have lived in Malaysia a country i can call my home...

filled with wonderful places, different cultures and ethnicity....

a true merdeka spirit is when each everyone of us let go of our ego of skin colors and forget of the past.....

why i say so ?

well, issues only comes in if the old keep feeding the younger generations with with stories of the past....

the only way for malaysia to be truly achieve its freedom is by liberate younger people's mind from this stories.... we are all educated from young we don't need any other people to tell us the stories over and over again.... so...

why stick with the past when everyone is walking towards future...

well let us younger generation stop thinking about the past and walk to the future together....

then we are at least a few step closer to becoming a great country

i just read a blog post from the great grand daughter of our the late Tunku Abdul Rahman regarding this issue....

well i feel what she said was quite true....

(For the concept to succeed, I think the government should stop with the race politics. It's tiring, really. We grew up with application forms asking us to tick our race. We should stop painting a negative image of the other races, stop thinking about 'us' and 'them' and focus on 'we', 'our' and 'Malaysians'.) quoted from her blog

well i truly hope the idea's of Malaysia as One could come true.....

Happy Birthday Malaysia

Merdeka !!

(photo's of me and Boon in office credited to Gacky and his colleagues' fish eye)

Well i can officially say that i have spent this few months of my life making myself completely packed with thousands of things to do....

My house seems to be a place for me to just sleep....

everyday after i open my eyes it would be bathing then work and then lunch, office then back to work...

then a few weeks ago i even touch a competition Astro's Astro新秀大赛2010 (Astro Star Quest 2010) MV Director competition.....(making me busy as an ant)

well maybe its my luck manage to be shortlisted to compete in the Final 5 MV Director's

(PS: stories about this event will be up soon bare with me)

Well interning in has took most of the time in my life....

i don't even have time for myself.....

well my wallet is torn yet still haven't had the time to buy one....

need to catch up a lot of movies which i missed this pass few months....

missed my friends a lot.... hahaha....

i will certainly feel very weird when we begin to go back to classes in Uni a few months later

everything won't be the same anymore .... all of our knowledge would grow and we would also mature in a sense...

(Suddenly felt afraid as everyone would be equally good)

to stand out from others i would need to work even harder ....

as in the Creative line no one is safe and on top of the world....

so many things a running through my mind mix feelings and everything don't seem to come as desired....

well i still believe when one door closes another opens......

well got to get back to work....

my next post would be a recap of the MV competition

Luv,

~GiNo

a micey business

i interrupt the supposedly post for this particular post....
2 days ago a creature which is well known for its name such as Mickey, Minnie or Jerry
has infiltrate into my humble abode.....

raising chaos among housemate especially a victim of trauma and extreme phobia on mouse name Alvan Chin Ghit Mun. He was in a state of paranoia and hysteria.

the little creature left us with clues of its droppings....
giving me the chance to used it against it.....

traps have been set using Rat Glues and and contaminated flour (Ps: that creatures master piece)

contaminated flour


how the trap looks like.....


mission capturing rat started of.... with me loosing
he kept biting and destroying my stuffs.....
he can move so stealth not noticeable on my eye level and diving in front of me then run and hide .....
so i place another trap on the sink and went up .... one thing is so many traps he manage to eat the bait and left the area but at last he was caught ....

look at him he at the cheese part


but after capturing happiness don't just come in....
i felt guilt and anxiety because i am doing animal cruelty ......
when i want to take it and throw away i can see he was crying squeaking non stop like as if begging me don't kill me while struggling.....
i was reluctance.... but i had no choice..... i close my eyes close i can't bear to look at it suffering....
i quickly take and threw far far from my house.....

sorry little rat i don't mean to kill you....
but you leave me no choice i tried to let you go but you prefer to wreck havoc in my house so.... its either you vanish or i am in pain.....sorry


Luv,
~>Gino

Earth Hour Again 2010

Earth Hour is back this time it has more supporter...
well i just hope really has the tendency of saving Earth not just by doing so because everybody is doing so...

i am a very... what do call ... Eco-fighters something like that....
well i started to segregate my rubbish....
i don't use plastic bag unless i was forced to...
i try to save electricity ...
i support in banning of plastic bags...
i don't use tissue unless i am forced to... if so 1 tissue will be torn in bits by bits so everyone can use
i don't waste food... i finish everything unless those thing i am allergic or traumatize against ya its traumatized...
i love vegetables supporting organic....


well all my friends knows that ... those who are close with me hahahahaa...


well in my thought is everyone living of mother Earth plays a big role and has the responsibility to save earth...
so everyone say he/she is also doing this and that... giving themselves excuses to continue waste Earth's resource.....
well i would say stop giving excuse to yourself....
everyone needs to take their 1st step and change our habits don't take mother Earth for granted ...
she is getting old....


so why not each and everyone of us start slowly one after another....
just like Michael Jackson says ...
"if you wanna make the world a better place, take a look at yourself and make a change"
quoted from his song "Man in the Mirror"


Luv,
~>GiNo

Change

Well i have been looking back at all the pictures from last time until now....
well share some picture with you guys about me and how i have change ....
the pictures will be showed from my times in form six till recent
well after looking at it i cant believe my eyes how much i have change hahaha...


when i was young .... i look stupid ...


1st time ever to dye my hair


highlighted it blonde....


hair started to grow after form 6 started to work...
no time to cut my hair...


came to KL and dye it dark brown ....


hair grown long .... i cant believe it i look so ......speechless


after attend classes hair started to grow....



1st time on the cat walk.... which starts my life in modeling....


tired of long hair so decided to cut it short and trimmed it


but my hair grows extremely fast.... the dye started to disappear


the dye finally grew off....


hair are still long but the dye have been trimmed away....


the hair got trimmed already .... new hairstyle....


at that time i was kinda skinny


got tired trimmed it short ..... totally ...


i trimmed of my bangs and there you have it fringe....


i use to wear snow cap alot... i wore it almost everywhere


well at that time every likes fringe so i follow the trend which makes me look so..
fugly...but i thought it look good back then hahahaha


but times past i finally cut it totally short ...
could feel the breeze and my head totally feels light


times fly and i change another style making me look like Jacky Chan at that time...
i still remember my housemate laughing at my Jacky Chan hairstyle at that time


then i change look when its time for yet another fashion show


MTV asia award arrive and i have a new style once again


i kept it long for a very long time refusing to trimmed it...
which end up like this during Korea's SM Town entertainment global audition...


i decided to straightened my hair after that making flat...


model portrait shoot which i still prolonged the long straight hair


hair grew longer and longer as time passes


i began to be mistaken by people as a girl or a tomboy


but i like it long as i like plating it...


long hair still looks good even though your wearing cap...


i always tied the end up and pin it below making it looks shorter


time flies... and my hair grew over my should towards the back already ...
at can remember i am always mistaken by people as girl ... i would laugh at it...
looking back i kinda miss my long hair


well i started to wear glasses without any glass inside for sake of looking different hahaha...
call me dumb but i feel smarter than those who torment themselves to watch the tv closely until their eyes ROSAK so they can wear it .... hahaha thats when they were kids


well hair got a little out of control as i don't really style it anymore....


so after so long i decided to cut it very short.....


alot of people find i look younger with shorter hair...
they say i look like a boy...


well i don't like to be acknowledge as cute...
preferably to be acknowledge as YENG


at a this time around i felt i need something new as i got very tired of the same old look....


and so i grew more fat... became heavier from a 58kg to a 60kg boy...


went to Bangkok with and decided to bring their style back to Malaysia....


the specs grew bigger and i wore fedora more often now....


but i change as time passes coz i prefer to look more old school....


a more relaxing way even what i wear..... i fold my long pants....
that was like beginning of the year .... but now it seems like everyone is doing that


well cut a bop hair...


as old school as i look but the hair is giving alot of problems


which made me change the style once again ....
as bop has heavy duty maintainance


people say i am an emo boy... coz i do everything emo d


i decided to stay looking.... boyish hahaha
well because its Famine 30 hours i cant wash hair which makes unbearable...


after that i prefer shorter hair already...


even with fedora its still short hair


i like to play with alot of styles on my hair... well since i like old school still ...
so clothing wont change much the hairstyle


this the most recent look i have....
seemingly fat ahahahaha....
well i am really fat already ... need to keep fit already...

well need to workout on those abs hahaha....
its all flabby now hahaha

i cant believe how much i have change within this 4-5 years .....
well more will come as time passes....
well friends turn enemies....
close friends turn distant....
friends gain trust....
people move on ...
everyone change ... its a good thing or a bad thing ???
but one think i know is...
i may change alot form outside...
but how i felt inside my heart is still the same....

Luv,
~GiNo